Chapter 1595 Do You Want My Life?

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When Jing Xiu woke up, Luo Yunli was texting.

She sat on a chair next to the hospital bed, lowered her head, and sent text messages very hard and seriously.

She doesn't use her mobile phone for too long, and she doesn't know how to send text messages, let alone send text messages with one hand. That's why she lowered her head and sent text messages with both hands.

Jing Xiu didn't move either, he was too tired physically and mentally.

He just looked at her.

After more than ten minutes, Luo Yunli raised her head, and when she suddenly met his eyes, she was also startled.

"Axiu, you're awake!" Luo Yunli was stunned, and a look of surprise appeared on his face in an instant, "When did you wake up, why didn't you call me!"

"Want something to eat? I'll go buy it for you right away." Luo Yunli put down his phone, and said while holding his hand tightly.

Jing Xiu shook his head.

Luo Yunli bit her lip, sat on the edge of the hospital bed, lay down next to Jing Xiu with her sideways body, she went to kiss Jing Xiu's cheek, but Jing Xiu tilted his head slightly and avoided it.

Luo Yunli was taken aback for a moment, then his eyes turned red, "Axiu, you...do you dislike me?"

"No, I don't know how long I haven't washed my face." Jing Xiu smiled, "It's not clean."

"I don't despise you." Luo Yunli held his face and kissed his dry lips without hesitation, "You haven't kissed me for a long time."

"Yun Li, let me go first, I can't breathe."

Jing Xiu's voice was tired.

Luo Yunli quickly let go, and looked at Jing Xiu nervously, "What's the matter, what's the matter, is there something uncomfortable?"

"It's okay." Jing Xiu breathed a long sigh of relief, "You haven't eaten yet, go and eat, don't worry about me. There are nurses."

"No, I don't want to leave your side." Luo Yunli picked up the kettle on the bedside table, which contained warm water, poured out a little, and asked Jing Xiu to drink a little, at least to moisten his lips and throat.

Jing Xiu didn't have the energy to argue with her.

He lay still and said nothing.

Luo Yunli kept thinking of various interesting things to share with him.

"Yangji's operation was successful. The doctor said that she will be discharged from the hospital in a short period of time, and Rajen, her eye surgery is also very successful. The doctor said that if the recovery is good, her vision will basically be within 100 degrees! Gesang's cleft lip and palate surgery has also been arranged..."

Luo Yunli chattered endlessly, his voice filled with joy.

"I took Gesang to a movie, and I also took him to KFC. The little guy was very happy." Luo Yunli said, "By the way, I also bought a lot of books for them. There are too many kinds of books here. There are none in Tibetan areas, and it is difficult to buy. Big cities are convenient, and I have learned how to shop online, and the fastest delivery can be delivered in one day, which is unbelievable!"

"The children here are so happy." Luo Yunli said with emotion, "I was shopping in the supermarket, and I heard a little girl angrily told her mother that she didn't want to go to special classes, learn piano, dance, or Painting and learning English... Really... I don't know the blessings in the blessings. It is difficult for children in our Tibetan areas to finish primary and junior high schools, let alone extra-curricular classes. Many people have never even watched TV a few times , mobile phones are only seen on TV..."

"Ah Xiu, in the future, our child must be given the best environment and the best education." Luo Yunli said in a low voice, "Oh, by the way, this is my account book for the past few days. The money is on it. I don’t remember, I’ve already spent so much money, and in this big city, the money is really useless.”

"Don't show me." Jing Xiu was very tired, "It's just a little money."

"It's your money too, not mine." Luo Yunli bit his lip, "I will write down every amount of money spent now, and I will return it to you in the future."

"Yun Li." Jing Xiu didn't continue the topic, he suddenly called her.

"Um?"

"Do you love me?" Jing Xiu's voice was very soft and tired.

"What's the matter with you." Luo Yunli looked at Jing Xiu with strange eyes, "Why do you ask this question suddenly? Don't you know whether I love you or not? I thought this was the only question we didn't need to ask anymore !"

Jing Xiu looked up at her, "The cause of my illness has never been found out, and I don't know how long I can last. Maybe one time, when there are no medical staff around, I have a heart attack and I will die."

"No, no, you are not allowed to say that, no, definitely not!" Luo Yunli immediately hugged him and cried, "Don't do this, you really will be fine!"

Jing Xiu smiled, "Originally I thought, finish the work on the base as soon as possible, and then marry you, we will go back to the Tibetan area and live there... If my parents still don't forgive me, I will Take a little time every year to go home and visit them, and spend the rest of the time staying with you in Tibetan areas, supporting education, or being a Tibetan doctor. If they forgive me, I will take you home and visit them often... If We have a child, my parents must be more soft-hearted..."

"..." Luo Yunli bit his lip and looked at Jing Xiu, "Why are you talking about this all of a sudden?"

Jing Xiu smiled, reached out and stroked Luo Yunli's face, "I really want to spend my whole life with you, be it poor or rich, I don't like life in big cities, and I don't like political intrigue, I have no ambitions , I don’t have any goals, I just want to live a life in the mountains and rivers, and do my best to help those in need.”

Luo Yunli didn't know how to answer.

"Wunli, you like cities very much, don't you?"

"I...I don't...I like you...wherever you are, I will be there!" Luo Yunli bit his lips, "You like to live a life close to nature, we live in Tibetan areas, I will go wherever you want Where to follow. It’s just... I think we should also think about our children. If we have children, he will receive education in a big city, and he will have more opportunities to choose in the future. If he follows us in Tibetan areas, he will not be able to contact him at all. In a developed society, his horizons will be narrowed... that will limit his life. At least let him make a choice after he has been exposed to prosperity, otherwise I worry that he will regret it and resent him."

Jing Xiu was silent for a while, "I don't want a child."

"Ah?" Luo Yunli's eyes widened, "Why...why?"

"There's no reason, I just haven't considered having a child." Jing Xiu said softly, "I'm afraid I won't be a good father, I'm afraid I won't be able to bear the responsibility. If I give birth to him, I won't be able to raise him or teach him well. For him, it would be better not to give birth to him from the beginning."

Luo Yunli was silent.

Jing Xiu looked at her, "I'm sorry Yun Li, we haven't talked about this issue before. It can be seen that you like children very much and want to have children of your own, but I can't. I can help those children, but I really Not ready to be a father, and probably never will be. I may really, never be a father."

"No... No, it's not like this..." Luo Yunli's expression was very tangled, "You are so kind and caring, and you are also very patient with the children. You will definitely be a good father."

"It's not the same." Jing Xiu shook his head, "I can't confirm that I can take on this responsibility, and I don't want my children to resent. An irresponsible father is a disaster for children."

"But……"

"Yun Li, the money on my card should be enough for you to study and live in S City. You can go to university, learn anything you want, and do whatever you want." Jing Xiu said softly, "You can have a more exciting life."

"You...what do you mean?" Luo Yunli looked at Jing Xiu with some horror, holding Jing Xiu's arm tightly with both hands, "Ah Xiu, you you you...what are you going to do, don't scare me, Why did you say such a thing suddenly, Axiu!"

Jing Xiu looked at her, stretched out his hand reluctantly, and caressed her face, "Yun Li, can my illness be cured?"

"...Yes, definitely!" Luo Yunli tightly held his hand on her cheek, "The cause will definitely be found and cured, you can't be so negative."

"No, I'm asking you." Jing Xiu looked at her, "When will my illness recover?"

"..." Luo Yunli blinked his eyes in a daze, "I...I am not a doctor, but the doctor will definitely find the cause of the disease quickly and heal you quickly..."

"Will it be better tomorrow?" Jing Xiu asked, "or the day after tomorrow?"

"Ash, you...you..."

"Yunli, I am very grateful for everything you gave for me and Yaoyao, and I will never forget it." Jing Xiu said softly, "I really like you too, love you, you are so kind...I swear to give you happiness , I swear everything you want, I will give you!"

"Axiu..." Luo Yunli wept emotionally.

Jing Xiu smiled, "But now, I find that you are not happy with me, and I can't give you happiness."

"No, no, no, I am very happy, I am happy in everything I do when I am with you..."

"Yun Li, listen to me." Jing Xiu looked at her, "I thought I understood you, but in fact I don't understand you at all. I didn't know until now what you want."

"..."

"You don't have to force it. It's fate to be able to walk together for such a long time. I'm always grateful to you, really." Jing Xiu said lightly, "I thought I could give you everything, but in fact, I can't. For example, I can give you marriage , but I can't give you a child; I can give you love, but I can't give you life..."

"I don't want children, and I don't want your life, I just want you!"

"All the money on the card will be transferred to your account name, and the apartment you bought a few days ago will allow you to settle down in S City. From now on, I can no longer accompany you." Jing Xiu said.

"Why! What's wrong with you!" Luo Yunli collapsed.

Jing Xiu looked at her, his eyes suddenly filled with deep disappointment: "Yun Li, I told you once, you can tell me directly what you want, and I will give it to you, even if it is My life! But why didn't you tell me?"

"Say... say what?"

"Yun Li, you are used to fighting for and getting what you want by yourself. But there are some things that you can't reach out for if I don't give them to you." Jing Xiu looked at her, "For example, my life."