Chapter 187 Compromise with Yourself

Because Jimo Qian was clamoring to play with his brother, Yan Donghuang had to end the conversation first and met the empress again under the guidance of the palace.

The empress arranged for her to stay in the side hall next to her bedroom.

Because Yan Donghuang came on her own and not as the emperor of Yong Dynasty, there was no need to invite a large number of people to entertain her, nor was there any superficial grandeur.

The dinner was very rich, but there were only a few people eating, only the empress and Yan Donghuang and her daughter.

Even the palace servants who served beside were dismissed.

The empress's topic was almost all about the two children, which just happened to answer the questions in Yan Donghuang's heart.

"Qian'er's situation is very special. He was found to be abnormal when he was two years old. The imperial physicians have examined him and think that the child is born with this condition." Her Majesty the Queen was somewhat helpless. "I have tried many methods, but none of them worked. Later, I found out that the reason was with Quan Zi and me."

Yan Donghuang was puzzled: "What is the reason?"

"Quan Zi and I are cousins." The Queen smiled sadly. "Quan Zi's father is my uncle and my father's most capable general. Before my father died, he was worried about me and decided to give me two imperial husbands, Quan Zi and Xiu Mo, one civil and one military, both of whom are the top in the court."

"In addition to the two of them, there are four other concubines."

"Dong Bo has not shown any special abilities since he was a child, but his body is weaker than that of ordinary children. , his brother is like this again, I once suspected that I had done something wrong, so God would punish me like this. "Her Majesty the Queen's eyes dimmed a lot when she talked about the past, "When Dong Bo grew up, he told me that the reason why his brother was like this was because Qian'er's parents were too close, and Quan Zi and I should not have been married. "

Yan Donghuang frowned: "Does Quan Zi know about this?"

"He doesn't know, I haven't told him." The Queen sighed lightly, "It's just that after Dong Bo said this, I have been alienated from Quan Zi in my heart. Over the years, he has always felt that I am biased towards Xiu Mo and his son, and he has been a little unfair in his heart, so he gradually developed the idea of ​​seizing power. "

In the final analysis, it was because of jealousy.

Yan Donghuang's eyebrows were slightly twisted, and she imagined a drama of love turning into hate in her mind, and her mood became subtle.

Then she thought, if this happened to her, how would she deal with it?

If it was a male emperor, the three palaces and six courtyards would naturally be managed by the queen.

The emperor is busy dealing with government affairs, so how could he care about the means of jealousy in the harem?

But it is precisely because the emperor does not care, turns a blind eye, and even condones some things that should not happen for the sake of the power of the previous dynasty that the harem is in chaos, the heirs are killed, brothers quarrel, and all kinds of messy things happen one after another.

And if the same thing happens to the empress...

For example, the master of the harem Feng Yaoguang, the imperial concubine Mu Yunfan, the concubine Xie Yunjian, and then Gu Chiran, Xiao Nanfeng... If they are jealous, they may directly overturn the harem by force.

Or the sons of those handsome and gentle ministers in the court.

Yan Donghuang raised his eyes to look at the empress and asked sincerely: "You..."

"What?"

Yan Donghuang was silent for a moment: "When mother first took those imperial husbands and concubines into the palace, how did she deal with them?"

Her Majesty was slightly startled by her "mother", and then her expression was strange: "I rarely summoned her."

Yan Donghuang: "..."

"The existence of several people in the harem is to consolidate this precarious position, not because I am addicted to men. Besides, apart from their family background, those concubines have nothing to show for their temperament, appearance and character."

"Dongbai, Ziying and Qian'er were all born before I ascended the throne. Before Ziying was born, I had always maintained a cooperative relationship with Quan Zi."

"You know, whether a man is in power or a woman ascends the throne, no matter how many people there are in the harem, giving birth is Women's affairs are very harmful to their bodies, and every birth of a child means at least one year of time spent nurturing, protecting the fetus and sitting in confinement, and this is under the premise that there is no danger of childbirth. "

"If there is a miscarriage, it is possible that she will die."

"So after ascending the throne, I was busy with government affairs all day, supervising military training, and rectifying corrupt officials in Northern Qi. For a long time, I didn't even go to the harem, and I didn't summon any emperor to sleep with me at night. We could discuss government affairs together during the day and separate at night. "

"Man and woman love is indeed addictive for many people, but once you get pregnant, it is a troublesome thing. I, a dignified queen, really don't want to drink contraceptive soup often, so I just stay away from men to avoid trouble. "

Yan Donghuang didn't speak for a long time after hearing this.

Perhaps this is the sadness of women, who can never escape the fate of having children.

Even if you fight on the battlefield, even if you rule the world, if you want a biological child with your own blood relationship, you still need to give birth to it yourself.

And childbirth is the same for every woman. It is not less dangerous because of your noble status, nor will the child be born smoothly because you are the empress.

The suffering you should endure will not be reduced, and the time you should delay will be delayed.

Therefore, when the empress is in power, the offspring is destined to be thin.

Yan Donghuang didn't say anything more. After dinner with the empress, he returned to her palace to rest.

The maids served Yan Donghuang, the distinguished guest, according to the order.

After washing up, Yan Donghuang lay on the incense-scented bed, looking at the night outside the window, and sighed softly.

Life is like a script full of various dramas.

The life experiences of the protagonists in the storybook can undergo bizarre changes at any time, especially the male protagonist and the female protagonist. No matter how mysterious things happen to them, it seems to be a reasonable thing.

Yan Donghuang put his hands behind his head, guessing what Feng Yaoguang was doing at this time.

The two join forces to defeat the world together.

It seems pretty good too.

As he closed his eyes, the scene before his death appeared in his mind involuntarily.

There were painful pleas in my ears: "Please don't die."

"Please don't die, okay? Please, I don't want you to die, please don't die, I..."

"I don't want the next life, I just ask you not to die in this life, Your Highness..."

"You have lost everything, so why can't you fight against fate one more time? Does fate say you should die? Why can't you go against fate?!"

The corners of Yan Donghuang's mouth raised slightly, and a silent sigh overflowed, as if he had no choice but to compromise with himself.

That’s all.

There are many choices in life.

The best thing is to follow your inner thoughts and do whatever you want.

So confused about what to do?