Chapter 220 Don’t Sympathize (1/2)

Chapter 220 Don't Sympathize

In the reception room of the Nalan family, Qinglin sat on a chair and silently ate the snacks that Nalan Yanran ordered the servants to bring. Ziyun sat on the chair with her legs up, one hand on her side face, and the other hand gently stroked the head of the little lion king, looking indifferently at Nalan Yanran and Xiao Yixian who were sitting in front of her and chatting.

In her heart, she couldn't help but sigh.

It's really hard to understand humans.

When they first came in, both sides were full of hostility towards each other, but after a conversation, they became happy.

Are all human emotions so fickle? Or are only girls the exception?

Just as Ziyun was thinking about this in her heart, the little lion king beside her yawned loudly, and then fell to the ground with tired eyes, and fell asleep peacefully soon.

Looking at the little lion king sleeping soundly at her feet, Ziyun's eyes flashed with a touch of motherly pampering.

During this period, the frequency of the little lion king's sleep has become higher and higher. As a beast, Zi Yun understands that this is a sign of an upcoming advancement.

The little lion king is now a third-level magic beast. When it successfully advances to the fourth-level magic beast, it can be fed with the companion purple crystal source.

At that time, the little lion king will be able to grow into a fifth-level magic beast.

(Go back and find a safe place to stay for a while.)

Zi Yun's heart made such a decision. Trying her best to protect her son's growth is the nature of a mother, regardless of whether he is a human or a magic beast.

At this time, Xiao Yixian also told Nalan Yanran about her experience of meeting Xiao Yan. After listening, Nalan Yanran was silent for a long time, and a hint of complexity flashed in her eyes.

Xiao Yixian's experience is really miserable. In comparison, her life so far can be said to be smooth sailing. Compared with Xiao Yixian, the grievances she has suffered are probably not even one ten-thousandth of those suffered by Xiao Yixian.

Nalan Yanran knows very well that if she killed her family because of her own reasons, she would probably have despaired of this world long ago.

The reason why Xiao Yixian can hold on until now is not only because of her strong nature, but also because of two extremely important people who saved her.

One is Boss Yao, and the other is Xiao Yan.

If one of these two people is missing, there would probably be no Xiao Yixian now.

Xiao Yixian told Nalan Yanran about this experience in order to let Nalan Yanran know clearly why she fell in love with Xiao Yan, so that she could deeply understand her sincerity and persistence towards Xiao Yan.

And this goal was indeed achieved.

After listening to the experience of Xiao Yixian and Xiao Yan's acquaintance, Nalan Yanran thought about it for a long time in her mind, but in the end she couldn't think of any words to deny Xiao Yixian's feelings.

If it were anyone else, when they were most desperate, they would not be abandoned or given up by someone like Xiao Yan, and no matter how much they rejected him, he would still be willing to sacrifice his life to pull them out of the abyss. There should be no one who would not be moved by Xiao Yan.

Thinking of this, Nalan Yanran couldn't help but smile bitterly.

If you think about it carefully, isn't it because of similar reasons that she fell in love with Xiao Yan?

Ten years ago, when he was as weak as herself, he stood in front of her firmly to protect her. Until now, Nalan Yanran could not forget his back.

The feeling in her heart at that time should be exactly the same as the throbbing that Xiao Yixian felt from Xiao Yan when she was most desperate.

"Haa."

Nalan Yanran covered her eyes with both hands, raised her head and sighed deeply.

The eyes covered by her palms revealed helplessness and resentment.

How can I go against her?

What made Nalan Yanran even more headache was that no one could be blamed for this matter, not even Xiao Yan.

If she blamed Xiao Yan for doing those things that made Xiao Yixian fall in love with him, then what about the back of him that was once engraved in her heart?

What's the difference between denying Xiao Yixian's feelings and denying her own feelings?

In the end, at least in terms of feelings for Xiao Yan, the only difference between herself and Xiao Yixian is that she and Xiao Yan are engaged.

But after spending the New Year at the Xiao family half a year ago, Nalan Yanran understood it deeply.

If she really liked Xiao Yan, she shouldn't bring up the marriage contract.

The title of fiancée is like a trump card for Nalan Yanran, and she must not use it until the last moment.

When she uses this trump card, it proves that she has nothing else to show for it.

The pride in Nalan Yanran's heart is unacceptable.

After a long silence, Nalan Yanran took away her hands covering her eyes and looked at Xiao Yixian sideways.

"Well, I said, if, I mean if."

"If I really get married to Xiao Yan in the future, what are you going to do?"

"Even if the person who will be with Xiao Yan in the future is not me, there will be someone else, will you give up at that time?"

Hearing Nalan Yanran's question, Xiao Yixian's pupils stagnated slightly, her lips pursed slightly, and her slender jade fingers couldn't help but clench tightly.

Xiao Yixian understood that what Nalan Yanran said was not impossible.

At some point in the future, Xiao Yan will choose to marry a woman sooner or later.

And this woman may not be me.

When that time comes, how should I choose?

Xiao Yixian thought quietly in her mind.

After a while, Xiao Yixian's body gradually relaxed, and she looked at Nalan Yanran, with a faint smile with a little sadness on her face.

"When that time comes, I might give up."

"I have already caused him too much trouble. If he really marries someone else in the future, I will not make him feel embarrassed at all."

"After giving up, maybe I will stay by his side as a maid to take care of him, or maybe I will leave him forever and never see him again. It's all possible."

"But at least now, while I can still fight for it, I want to fight for it with all my strength. I don't want to leave any regrets in my feelings for Xiao Yan. Even if I fail, I can tell myself that I have tried my best."

Xiao Yixian stared into Nalan Yanran's eyes, revealing a deep affection without any falsehood.

She said solemnly, word by word.

"I really like him."

Listening to Xiao Yixian's confession, Nalan Yanran stared at her blankly, unable to come back to her senses for a long time.

Even in her heart, she had some thoughts of retreating.

Her feelings for Xiao Yan were real, and Nalan Yanran would never deny this.

But Xiao Yixian, a girl of the same age as herself, has suffered too much.

If she were to be deprived of this vision, would it be too cruel for her?

Nalan Yanran's eyes fell slightly.

There are still many beautiful things in her life.

But Xiao Yixian really has nothing except Xiao Yan.

Something like asking Xiao Yixian to find other meanings in life after leaving Xiao Yan.

Nalan Yanran definitely couldn't say such words.

Anyone who has experienced what Xiao Yixian has experienced can hardly do this. It can even be said that Xiao Yan is the only reason why Xiao Yixian can still live with hope at this time.

Whether it is to enjoy new things, taste new food, or enjoy the fun of shopping like other girls.

All of this is based on Xiao Yan.

And for a girl with such a pitiful fate, how can I bear to say such words to let her give up?

Nalan Yanran felt very entangled in her heart.

I thought that Xiao Yu of the Xiao family was troublesome enough, but I didn't expect Xiao Yixian to be more difficult to deal with than Xiao Yu.

Facing Xiao Yu, Nalan Yanran just didn't know how to deal with her.

But facing Xiao Yixian, Nalan Yanran couldn't even raise the heart to deal with her.

At this moment, Nalan Yanran couldn't help but blame Xiao Yan in her heart.

I know that with your excellence, there will definitely be many girls who like you. I already knew this when I went to Xiao's house before.

I am naturally prepared for this.

But why are all the girls who like you the type that makes people feel distressed and can't be opposed to?

Nalan Yanran's eyes were full of sorrow.

At this moment, she actually missed Xiao Xun'er a little.

At least when facing Xiao Xun'er, she can play dirty with her without any scruples.

Without psychological burden or moral burden, when Xiao Xun'er is really done, then Nalan Yanran will definitely feel only joy.

But if she uses the methods she used on Xiao Xun'er on Xiao Yixian, then even if she wins in the end, she will have a strong sense of guilt in her heart.

Even though, it's not my fault.

Headache.

Nalan Yanran's eyes were full of melancholy.

Xiao Yixian looked at Nalan Yanran with a frown, and seemed to see the entanglement in her heart, and smiled and said lightly.

"Miss Nalan, please don't worry about me."

"Hmm?"

Xiao Yixian's sudden words made Nalan Yanran suddenly stagnate.

Then, she heard Xiao Yixian's next words.

"I never thought that Xiao Yan should be with me."

"No matter how tragic my past was, it was my own business. I would never use my past to gain your sympathy."

"Rather, if I use Xiao Yan's sympathy to win you, then I will be completely sorry for my feelings for Xiao Yan."

"If that's the case, I might as well give up now."

"What I hope is that Xiao Yan likes me from the bottom of his heart, not that he accepts my feelings for him because he sympathizes with me."

"This is responsible for myself and fair to Xiao Yan."

"It was him who desperately pulled me out of the abyss of despair, and if I use this to let him be with me, then what's the difference between me and an ungrateful person?"

"If I really do that, my mother and Boss Yao in the underworld will definitely be angry with me. I am disappointed."

"And to be honest, Xiao Yan and I are not as compatible as you think."

"Although I really like him and his upright character makes me admire him, it also makes me very dissatisfied."

"Even if I am with Xiao Yan in the future, I will never become as upright as him."

"That is to say, I am definitely not the best person for him."

"So Miss Nalan, please don't think that it is natural for me to be with Xiao Yan because of my tragic experience."

"In this world, it should never be the case that whoever is more miserable should get everything they want. This is unfair to everyone."

"And if you let Xiao Yan and I be together because you gave in to your sympathy for me, it would be like doubting my feelings for him."

"It's as if the reason you gave in was not because you lost to me, but because you lost to your own sympathy for me."

"In my opinion, the result is like I took advantage of your kindness and gave alms that did not belong to me."

"Although I do not agree with Xiao Yan's integrity, I am not so despicable."

Xiao Yixian stared at Nalan Yanran and said her inner thoughts in a solemn voice.

Nalan Yanran stared at Xiao Yixian's eyes quietly, and a deep shame emerged in her heart.

I once asked Xiao Yan to marry me with an engagement as a condition, which was extremely despicable compared to Xiao Yixian's absolute unwillingness to use sympathy to win Xiao Yan's sincerity.

At this time, Nalan Yanran was extremely fortunate that she went to the Xiao family half a year ago and clearly understood her previous problems.

Otherwise, her fiancée should be the least likely person to be with Xiao Yan.

In the past, she only considered her own wishes, but never considered what Xiao Yan thought in his heart.

This cognition was wrong to the extreme.

Nalan Yanran took a deep breath, her face returned to normal, and she looked at Xiao Yixian with a firm look again.

However, the hostility was not as strong as before.

Ziyun and Qinglin on the opposite side clearly felt that the atmosphere between the two had become peaceful. Just when Ziyun and Qinglin thought everything was fine, the atmosphere between Xiao Yixian and Nalan Yanran suddenly changed again.

"If you say so, then I won't be polite." Nalan Yanran raised the corner of her mouth, showing a hint of pride, "If Xiao Yan and I get married in the future, then you don't have to run around anymore, come and be my housekeeper~"

"Hehe." Hearing Nalan Yanran's words, Xiao Yixian raised her eyebrows, and the smile on her face became less kind, "Killing is fine, but killing someone is a bit too much, isn't it?"

"Didn't you say it yourself? If you lose, you might be a maid to accompany Xiao Yan. I just fulfilled your wish."

Nalan Yanran shrugged lightly, Xiao Yixian narrowed her eyes, and smiled at Nalan Yanran with a gloomy face.

"Miss Nalan, it's not good not to listen to others. Being Xiao Yan's maid and being your housekeeper are two completely different things to me. Please don't confuse them."

"Oh~~~Is that so." Nalan Yanran tilted her head indifferently, "I'm sorry, I've been busy with training during this period, and I may not pay much attention to my literary research."

Looking at the expressions of Xiao Yixian and Nalan Yanran facing each other, they clearly showed a kind smile, but the temperament revealed between them was so discordant.

Ziyun's eyes could not help but reveal a deep sense of realization and conviction.

As a demon beast, she seemed to have a new understanding of humans.

Sure enough, humans are a group of very fickle creatures.