Chapter 183 Another "I"

Without waiting for Klein's response, Azik, who was staring at the depths of the mausoleum, continued on his own:

"I still remember the first time I died and came back to life, lying among the pale corpses, standing up staggeringly, terrified in my heart, not knowing what happened or where I was.

"Before the church personnel collected the corpse for purification, I stumbled and fled there, wandering through the wilderness, villages and cities like a wandering spirit, unable to remember who I was or where I came from.

"During that time, no matter where I went, I could hear many cries, and seeing priests preside over a large number of burial ceremonies, I felt that sadness permeated every corner.

"Later, I accidentally rescued a noble girl and entered her family's manor. She was a sunny and cheerful girl, but I was like a beast coming out of the forest. I was sensitive, suspicious, inferior, afraid, and often showed coldness. , indifferent, cruel, and inconsistent with the moral side of human beings.

"She is very curious about me. No matter how I avoid her or do bad things, she will always approach me, infect me with her smile, and influence me with interesting things. Unknowingly, I got used to her teasing Get used to her presence.

"We walked together quietly, and she was very worried, afraid that her father would not allow her to marry a former tramp who is now a servant.

"Looking at her sad smile, for the first time, I had a feeling that my blood was boiling, and I impulsively told her that I was going to leave here, but I would come back with a knighthood and a wreath for the bride.

"I went to the army, I became a knight, I charged at the enemy holding a three-meter-long lance, and became a baron in the chaos remaining in the Northern Continent at the end of the Fourth Epoch, with my own fiefdom.

"I married my bride, as I promised, with the king's seal, the family's coat of arms, the knight's sash, and the wreaths I wove."

Having said that, the expression on Azik's face gradually softened, as if he was reminiscing and remembering something, even the corners of his mouth curled up unconsciously.

Klein's heart skipped a beat when he heard this, and he seemed to see the familiar Mr. Ards again.

"What happened next?" He carefully guided.

Azik looked ahead and said:

"Later...Later, we built a castle in our own fiefdom, and had a child. It was a boy who grew up very fast. It is foreseeable that he will grow tall and burly in the future.

"He liked to fight, and he was always running around with a broadsword in his hand, saying he wanted to be a knight.

"I thought it was just a child's temporary hobby, and it was hard to stick to it, but even if he broke his leg and bruised his head, he still didn't give up practicing. He thought that hiding in the room and covering his wound with a distorted expression would prevent me from seeing Hehe, he underestimated his father too much, the spirits of the entire territory are secretly serving me.

"Year after year, I retrieved more and more memories. My wife kept complaining that the castle was too dark and wanted to go to a sunny and warm place. I satisfied her request, but it was not until a long time later that I I understand that she doesn't hate living in the castle, but she is afraid of the little changes in me, afraid of me who is getting colder and stranger.

"She didn't say these things to me, and she still got along with me as in the past. We had a good life by the sea in the south, and even wanted to have another child, but unfortunately it didn't work out.

"It wasn't until I had a premonition that my next death was imminent that we returned to the fief, to the castle.

"My eldest son, that boy, told me that he wanted to go to Backlund, become the attendant of the Viscount and Earls, and start his own path of knighthood.

"I asked him, why did he make such a choice at the age of ten? He answered me, because I was his idol and role model, and he wanted to rely on himself instead of his parents to become a knight and become a nobleman like me.

"At that time, I had recovered most of my memories. I was always a little awkward, unfamiliar and uncomfortable when facing this child, but when I heard his answer, I still felt an indescribable joy, satisfaction and pride in my heart.

This is my child, a child completely different from the blood descendants I left behind in the Balam Empire. "

Klein knew that Mr. Azik was referring to his status as the "first Baron Ramud", and the child who made him proud and satisfied was poisoned and murdered in his later or middle age, and was crucified in a coffin. Even the skull was brutally taken away by Ince Zangwill.

Azik's eyes were in a trance and he said:

"I died again, woke up in a daze, instinctively moved away from the fief, and wandered to other places under pre-arrangement. In the first part of every life and every time, I have a different life, and sometimes encounter sweet love , Sometimes I get a beloved daughter, that kind of heartfelt love, helplessness, and satisfaction time and time again make me stunned, confused, and contradictory when I gradually regain my memory.

"Once, I was a filial son who brought pride to my parents and a wonderful life and lovely grandsons and granddaughters, but when I 'woke up' and found myself, I remembered that I went to At the end of the first life, I ignored their real son who died on the battlefield and occupied this identity. On the one hand, I felt pain and guilt, and on the other hand, I thought it was nothing, just a trivial matter, and my heart seemed to split into two people.

"At that time, I had a mask that could turn me into anyone, but I lost it after waking up. Maybe I lost it on my own initiative..."

Klein thought of the daughter Mr. Ards mentioned who liked to beg for candy from him, thought it over, and said:

"I don't think you're divided, you're battling a mad spirit.

"After losing the memory of the past, you who start a new life again and again are kind, enthusiastic, and full of emotions. The closer to the current life, the more it should reflect this.

"This may be the real you, the essence of you, and you in the 'Death Consul' period were affected by the out-of-control tendency contained in the Extraordinary characteristics, and were influenced by the Death God passed down from a high position. I heard that, He has gone mad after the 'War of the Four Emperors'."

Klein’s words don’t actually have much basis, because he only knows a few parts of Azik’s life—the Baron Ramud, the father who made a swing for his daughter, the filial child, and the gentle and friendly history teacher.

His purpose is to provide a guess, a possibility, to help Mr. Ards fight against the "death consul character" that came back with his memory, and let him face up to himself in the past life, so as to reach a certain kind of reconciliation with himself, become less grim.

While talking, he suddenly had a new idea, and before Azik finished digesting what he just said, he asked again:

"Mr. Ards, do you know about anchors? The gods and angels fix themselves, so that they are not dragged down by the out-of-control tendencies and crazy nature of Extraordinary characteristics?"

"I know." Ards looked back and nodded.

Klein wasn't too sure, but said in a rather firm tone:

"Perhaps, the new life you started with losing your memory again and again is your anchor against madness and loss of control!"

Don't throw them away, don't forget them, this is who you are! After finishing speaking, Klein silently added another sentence in his heart.

"Anchor..." Azik repeated the word with a look of thought and confusion.

After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly sighed and said:

"This may be an explanation, at least it makes the division and conflict in my heart less intense.

"However, now that I have come here, I still have to go to the depths of the mausoleum to see what is hidden there, why is it calling me, and what caused me to die and resurrect again and again, and to lose my memory again and again and gradually regain it ...

"This has troubled me for more than a thousand years, and has troubled me again and again in my life. I think I should be able to get an answer today."

His gaze gradually became sober, and his tone seemed soft but with an indescribable firmness.

Klein wanted to stop it, but after opening his mouth, he closed it again.

Azik pressed the half-height silk top hat on the top of his head, without tilting his head, and smiled gently:

"Remember to close your eyes."

After speaking, he walked forward, along the steps, to the depths of the dark mausoleum.

The black mist pervading there didn't let out any more gasps, and slowly spread out to the surroundings, revealing little by little the illusory things entrenched at the bottom.

It was a Feathered Serpent so huge that it seemed to occupy an island!

It has huge scales that are dark green and black, and feathers stained with light butter stains grow out of the gaps. On each feather, there are illusory black thin tubes extending out.

This exaggerated feathered snake is both illusory and real, and its more specific shape is difficult to describe, and it seems to have a composition that humans cannot understand.

Pale flames burn in its eye sockets, and its face is a human face!

That face has a bronze complexion, soft facial features, and a small mole under the right ear, just like another Azik Eggers!

PS: Change first and then change, also, the new version of this chapter seems to have a strong delay.