Chapter 52 Jealousy and Hatred

Julius was silent for a long time.

He took a deep breath and began to psychoanalyze himself.

"I'm not just jealous of Bernardino. To be honest, I even hate him - he has a mentor who can teach him, and a foster father who loves him. Father Ludwig is even willing to sacrifice himself...just for complete liberation Bernardino's talent.

"And Bernardino—from the very beginning, he didn't have a burning desire... Ludwig knew that he couldn't reach the golden rank, just like me. But Ludwig specially designed it for him. A road that can ascend to the gods without embarking on the path of the extraordinary.

"But Bernardino took the excellent education he received for granted. He thought it was because he was smart, not because the teacher taught him well; he thought that what Ludwig spent all his time teaching him was just' A means of earning a living' nothing more.

"Compared with him, where is the difference? Is 'natural talent' so important, but there is a gap in talent that can completely separate two completely different paths of destiny?

"—Why is this based? Who allocated the talents? Why do they have better backgrounds and higher talents?"

Julius opened his eyes wide, and there was no regret in them, no hesitation at all.

He dissects himself with unrivaled proficiency.

This is the basic skill that every Soul Reaper must be proficient in order not to go crazy: "You said that I am jealous—maybe it is true. I am not only jealous of Bernardino, I am even jealous of Ludwig.

"I am a person of the same era as him, and an old friend who has known each other for many years. But why can he meet a child who can inherit his path and who can sacrifice his life without hesitation and think it is 'worth it'? Why can he Have the determination to give up everything and create art with your own life?

"Silver rank—for mortals, this is already the pinnacle of the extraordinary road. Prosperity and wealth come with a wave of your hand. But only extraordinary people will know... people who stay at the silver rank are the most painful.

"They may at any time have enough desire to be promoted to gold; but most of them will only stay here in their lives. Like me.

"They just came to the door and saw a more exciting and glorious world...but they couldn't find the door. That was more painful than being muddled.

"—talent."

Julius squeezed the word word for word through his teeth.

"All of this is because of their natural talents... You are right, I am indeed jealous. I am so jealous that there is blood in my eyes and fire in my heart. This fire is so hot that it is difficult to extinguish...

"The position that I have exhausted my whole life to reach...is just the starting point for these people. I will not be able to catch up with them in another lifetime, but I can clearly understand how great they are.

"...But there are indeed things that I can do."

Having said that, Julius couldn't help showing a satisfied smile: "I will never be able to catch up with his pace-but I have the ability to make him unable to catch up with my pace.

"I will never be able to reach the golden rank. But I can destroy a genius who is destined to become a god... In the words of Ludwig, 'As long as he does not become a sculptor, he will be a disaster for the world'. Shaped by myself A demon king, isn't this something only I can do?

"If it's an evil, despicable thing; if you can be called a genius if you can easily do something that others can't do...then I'm also an evil genius, a peerless rotten person."

Having said that, Julius' voice gradually lowered.

He almost gritted his teeth and said word by word: "I would rather be a sinner than disappear in history. If people can't remember me because of my achievements and greatness, at least they should remember me because of my crimes." Hold me."

He said, looking at Annan expectantly: "Quickly, tell me...how did Bernardino die in the end? Did he embark on the path of the Soul Reaper? Did he become a villain?"

"He was killed by me. Because of his great crime...he killed all the black towers of Zedi."

Annan leaned back slightly in his chair, looking at Julius with pity.

He said lightly: "Bernardino did become a soul-reaper. But unfortunately... even if you try so hard to destroy a genius to satisfy your own desire, he finally reached the golden rank and almost became a god." ——At the final juncture, I personally annihilated his sublime avatar on the top of the Black Tower of the Zedi.

"And I... have indeed never heard of your name. Whether it is a good name or a bad name."

The corners of Annan's mouth rose slightly.

Looking at Doctor Julius whose pupils were constantly trembling.

Annan used the face of Bernardino when he was a boy, showing a bright smile full of malice: "I think, probably Bernardino, who finally understood the truth back then, killed you with his own hands.

"It's a pity that your burning jealousy didn't allow you to take another step up.

"In the end... you still haven't changed anything."

Following Annan's words, the world around him finally began to peel and collapse.

Roofs fell, tabletops caved in, floors cracked.

Half of the face of Doctor Julius, who was sitting opposite Annan, also peeled off, fell off, and turned into nothingness. His whole body became fragmented, and he leaned forward and tried to say something, but all he could see was his tongue trembling wildly, and a whimper that was not just a whimper but a roar came from the depths of his throat.

Only those blood-red pupils could clearly reflect the fiery jealousy.

Sleepiness made Annan close his eyes.

When he opened his eyes again, he found that he had returned to the state of being bound again.

"...the blood pressure is still rising!"

"—Brother, he's awake!"

"—It's unbelievable that he's still alive..."

There was a lot of discussion around.

And Annan clearly felt that there was something in his body that ebbed and flowed with his breathing.

That is activated order mana.

It's also dark, wet and cold hatred...

——Bernardino, finally mastered the spell and became an apprentice wizard.

But those apprentices still don't know what happened.

They just removed the blindfold of "Bernardino" according to the experimental procedure.

Annan narrowed his eyes suddenly, feeling dizzy.

The light of the ceremony lamp was still shining on Bernardino's face.

Two lines of blood and tears gradually flowed from the eyes of "Bernardino".

"...Eh, his eyes are bleeding."

"Is it high blood pressure? No such symptoms have been seen in animal experiments."

"I think it's because sea beasts come from the deep sea and cannot accept strong lights..."

The apprentices discussed.

They didn't think about Bernardino's feelings, rather... If they could make this "old man" feel pain, they would have fun instead.

They had no idea, after they let Bernardino enter the deepest part of the darkest heart... what would he see.

In other words, they have already seen Bernardino's memories countless times, and they feel that there is nothing to care about.

Of course, the real reason is - as apprentices, they will not be aware of the memory modified by the "professor" himself. With so many people, not only did Bernardino not doubt this memory, but it made him more convinced, so that he completed the intermittent and not very clear "false memory" in his mind.

"Remove the light, fool!"

Annan scolded without hesitation.

The students were stunned for a moment, but still subconsciously obeyed the command and moved the strong light away from the face of "Bernardino".

But after the bright lights were removed, Annan realized...

I am afraid that when Bernardino woke up, he had lost his eyesight forever.

In his field of vision, there are no walls, ceilings or floors at all. There are only the outlines of "spiritual bodies" of different colors one after another, dancing with teeth and claws.

"Following the tide for forty years, only to be awakened by a nightmare..."

Annan sighed softly.

Or, these forty years of nothingness and pain... were all just a nightmare that never woke up?

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