Nineteen I No Longer Love You (I)

"Why not?" She was like a child begging for candy, "I want you to be happy too. "

"...I'm fine as I am." This is a lie. He's not good at all.

"But I'm not good." Shang Shiyu pressed his body tightly against him.

He held her hips with both hands, looking at her so cute and bold in pain, wishing he could just pull her and fall into the dark abyss. If he is more selfish, he can just have short-term love and happiness, and not worry about whether she will be well after he dies and whether she can live strong.

But she is a merchant~

The child he loved the most.

"Shang Shang, I can't have you." Tang Wei's voice was hoarse. "This is the most important first time in your life. You should give her to your future husband, not me. I can't be responsible for you, you Understand?"

After saying these words, my heart felt as if I had been stabbed by thousands of knives.

In the past few years, he couldn't help but think about what kind of life she would live after his death and what kind of man she would marry. Every time I think about this, it ends midway because it is too painful. When he spoke out today, he realized how deeply this topic hurt him.

"I don't need you to be responsible! I'm not a child. I can give to whomever I want. I don't need anyone to be responsible for." Shang Shiyu burst into tears again because of his words.

Tang Wei took a deep breath, "I think we should all calm down."

Shang Shiyu hugged him and put his chin on his shoulder, "I won't hold you responsible...Tang Wei, this isn't the first time!"

As soon as these words were spoken, Tang Wei's body was severely shaken.

It still hurts.

Heart-breaking pain.

Who did she give it to?

She continued to lie: "It's true that I love you, but I also have a problem. Moreover, when I'm drunk, I always get into trouble..."

He was very angry, and his whole body tensed up. Every word came out from his lips, "Drunk sex? One-night stand?"

"yes."

"You shouldn't do this to yourself!" His eyes were red,

There was extreme pain and a hint of hatred in his eyes. What he hates is himself.

His business, such an important first time for her, should not be wasted like this.

Huge pain and frustration surged over her, and Tang Wei had nowhere to vent but to bite her lips.

He didn't know whether he was taking revenge on himself or her, as his long fingers took hold of her deeper and harder. No matter how she begged for mercy, he refused to let her go.

Tang Wei still didn't really want her until the end. The fact that he can't be responsible for her has nothing to do with whether it's her first time, but it has to do with the fact that he is about to die.

Shang Shiyu climaxed again and again on his fingertips, but the more he did it, the greater the emptiness in his heart became. He refused to take it for himself, even if he had reached the point of being intolerable, even if she said he didn't need to be responsible, even if it was clear that Yu Sheng had prepared condoms for him, he still didn't want it.

Is he guarding his body like jade for Yun Ling?

This possibility almost tore her tenacious soul into pieces.

"Have you ever had sex with Yun Ling?" She asked unwillingly, "Did you give her your first time?"

Tang Wei was in a state of embarrassment and did not answer her question. He just said, "I'll take you to take a bath."

"why do not you answer me?"

Tang Wei carried her out of the room and carried her into the bathtub of the public bathroom, and then said to her: "Shang Shang, what happened today will never happen again. And..."

Having said this, he paused and looked into her eyes, "My first time is good for anyone, but it won't be you. Do you understand?"

Shang Shiyu shrank in pain. She didn't ask any more questions. She just huddled in the bathtub, hugged herself tightly and turned around, turning her back to him.

He could clearly see her twitching body.

Tang Wei stood there, frozen for a while, and finally turned around, closed the bathroom door and walked out. Every step was as heavy as lead.

His coat was placed casually on the sofa. The box of condoms Yu Sheng gave him fell on the carpet. He smiled wryly at himself, picked it up and threw it into the trash can. I went back to my room and took a cold shower regardless of my poor physical condition.

Otherwise, instead of dying of cancer tonight, he would be burned to death in the fire.

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He came out of the cold shower and took some pills, but she hadn't come out of the bathroom yet.

Tang Wei was afraid that something might happen to her, so he rushed into the bathroom uneasily. When he saw her sleeping in the jacuzzi, his heart was tense and he breathed a sigh of relief.

Fortunately, the water in the bathtub was at a constant temperature, so she wouldn't freeze.

He took a large bath towel, spread it on his legs, took her out of the bathtub, and wrapped her in the bath towel. His fingers accidentally touched her silky and delicate skin, and his fingertips were still trembling. Hot all over.

When I think of her being so willful and confessing her confusion for the first time, I feel like my heart is twisting. There was a burning urge to teach her a lesson.

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This night.

Shang Shiyu fell into a drowsy sleep.

The next day.

When I woke up, it was already dawn outside. She just felt a splitting headache. When he pressed his eyebrows and opened his eyes, he felt a little dazed. For a moment, I didn't know where I was.

However, soon, the passionate scenes from last night kept intruding into her mind like a movie.

She remembered what she and Tang Wei had done, and she also remembered that she begged him for pleasure. However, she remembered that not only did he not want her, but he ruthlessly told her that his first time would never belong to her.

Sadness, stirring the heart.

She barely propped herself up and half sat up, only to find that she was sleeping in his bedroom. However, the place next to her was empty, and there was no sign of anyone lying there.

Last night, he did not sleep next to her.

Did Yun Ling sleep on this bed? Or, did they sleep together?

Thinking of this, Shang Shiyu's face turned pale. Even if he felt uncomfortable, he could not lie down for a moment. He opened the quilt and jumped off the bed impatiently.

When Tang Wei pushed the door open and came in, he saw her hurriedly running away, as if there were some bacteria on the sheets.

He asked: "Why, are there bugs on the bed?"

"No." Shang Shiyu glanced at him, lowered his eyes, and muttered, "But it's dirty."

Her voice was very low, but he still heard it. He was not unhappy at all, but patiently explained to her: "This is the disinfected bed sheet that the hourly worker changed this week. You are the first one to sleep on it, so it shouldn't be dirty."

After all, he has been staying in the hospital this week.

He was still so gentle and calm, as if nothing had happened between them last night, and as if he had never said those cruel words to her last night.

She was no match for him in calmness, composure, and ruthlessness.

The one he could not forget was always her.