I Hope You All Have a Look

I want to ask everyone for a vacation today, I can't update it, and by the way, I would like to talk about the reason for the big comeback in the past six months.

I couldn't sleep until 7:00 yesterday, and my mental state was extremely poor all day today. I hurriedly finished the evening update of "Long Xie", but I didn't have the mood to write the old book.

In fact, this kind of exhaustion has lasted for more than 20 days, because I have been attending a training in other places these days, and I have no time from 8:00 am to 6:00 pm every day. I often write until two or three in the morning. Woke up again early in the morning.

It feels like my body has reached a limit load state, and I want to keep going, but it seems that the situation does not allow it.

I have always suffered from insomnia and headaches. It seems that those who write novels are prone to anxiety and insomnia after all. Neurasthenia has become normal, and I basically rely on melatonin before going to bed.

I have been taking melatonin for almost two years, and the effect is not very good. I don’t know if I continue to do this, whether to start dispensing medicine in the hospital...

I entered the industry relatively late. I remember that when I was preparing to write a big comeback in 2015, it coincided with the graduation season of my last year of university.

I went to a university in Canada. I don’t know if the graduation there is the same as in China. In short, the whole person is busy like a spinning top, and the sleep time is almost infinitely squeezed for writing novels.

Then one day, I took the speech script of the last class to strengthen my memory, while having dinner with my friends in a Korean restaurant, I gave a speech without a script, and there was a question and answer session. I was especially afraid that I would be asked some words that I didn’t understand.

I am a person who is very afraid of speaking in front of many people. I am a geek. I am a two-dimensional creature who plays games and reads novels. I don’t like to communicate with people.

So I fainted under this high pressure...

My friend was scared to death, and the restaurant proprietress was scared to death.

It was about fainting for less than ten seconds. The feeling was terrible, like my soul was out of my body. I could hear the panicked screams of the proprietress holding me tightly in her arms, as well as the chaotic voices of the people around me.

But it feels very far away, as if it is going away from me. I heard this in another time and space or dimension, without consciousness and perception.

At that moment, I felt terrible. Looking back, it was almost like death...

I'm not trying to win sympathy by saying this, I just hope readers can understand.

In the first half of this year, my insomnia continued to worsen, and I often did not sleep for 30 to 40 hours.

In addition, after three years of writing, it seems that I have penetrated into this circle, seen some things clearly, and seen more people.

At the beginning, I also had a strong resistance to the online literary circle. Everyone came to see my novels, not to see what I look like.

It was not until I started writing "Dragon Evil" that I felt the pressure of writing a new book, because no one read it anyway, so I wrote and updated it casually.

This kind of mentality made me regain my enthusiasm for novels, and also made me realize that I gave up a lot of things to write novels, all because of two words:

love!

It has nothing to do with people or things, I just like to write novels.

This single chapter will be deleted when the update resumes tomorrow.

thank you all.

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