1 Single Chapter with a Big Piece of Nonsense

?It’s been a long time since I wanted to post a single chapter, but I haven’t written it all the time. Firstly, I have no way to write. Second, I feel that expecting to be understood is an extremely immature..lā

There have been a lot of rewards recently, and they have lasted for a long time. Perhaps it is correct to say that since this book was put on the shelves, various rewards have continued, and it is not an exaggeration to describe it as overwhelming. Spending a lot of money, many local rich readers spent a lot of money seeking to add updates, and more of them were swiping screens that I couldn't count.

thank you all!

I feel that besides being able to say thank you here, the best reward is to write hard and code well.

But...<\br>\br>

There are many things that I need to explain, and I also have the responsibility to explain them. Whether everyone understands them or rejects them, when I decide to write down these innermost true thoughts, I am ready to respond positively to all right and wrong.

The following two paragraphs are highlighted, don't get me wrong:

[The first thing I want to explain and guarantee is to please readers rest assured that this book will not be eunuchs or unfinished, this is certain, and it is also my bottom line as a writer. 】

[The second thing I want to say is that in the days to come, I will try my best to keep updating, and write as much as I can. 】

Guaranteed to finish, I can't tell what I want to express in the next content.

The creative process is very hard, how hard is it? It is impossible to understand deeply without going deep into this field, and the hard work of each author is different. People have different trivial matters, troubles and distresses. Negative comments to avoid, all of the above are sources of stress.

This is a muddy road that is getting deeper and deeper. There are very strong people who run fast, and there are weak people who struggle hard.

I am a person who disdains to show my weakness to the outside. This kind of heart is extremely inconsistent with my appearance, and it often gives people the illusion that talking online and meeting offline are completely two people.

For a long time in my life before today, I was embarrassed to cry in front of my closest friends. I was afraid to show my vulnerable and vulnerable side. Emotions thrown at others.

But now when I write these words, more emotions are relief.

It is extremely difficult to resonate with people. There are no two identical leaves in the world, and there are no two completely compatible souls.

However, I choose to tell these words to you, my readers, and many of them are even unknown to my parents.

Why?

Because there is no one who can be closer to an author's own group than the readers who have followed this book all the way so far. The words narrated by each author often directly reflect their inner intuitive thoughts. A manifestation of spiritual resonance.

I firmly and somewhat stubbornly believe that those of you who like the book "The Great Return of the Last Days" and have followed it all the way to this day can best understand what I want to express at this moment.

The readership is huge, maybe as young as ten years old, maybe not much different from me.

A considerable part of the reader group prefers to follow books silently, and does not leave comments and join group interactions, and never falls behind when contributing subscriptions.

As a full-length work, it was published on China Literature's platform. During the ten months from May last year to October now, many people have slowly gathered.

The cultivation of reading articles, the appreciation of editors, and the expectations of readers have pushed this book step by step to a height that I, as a new author, never thought of.

How can I live up to such high hopes?

The further the book goes, the more difficult it is to write. There are a lot of pitfalls and various immature ideas that I poured into it, which made me feel more and more deeply how little my ability is.

Can I handle this difficult style of writing in the first book, and such a long novel that is somewhat beyond my ability?

I don't know, I can only take one step at a time, keep innovating, keep reflecting, keep improving, and try my best to do it if I can't do it. After driving out the mud, the treasure hidden at the bottom of the seemingly deep quagmire, Who knows what will get me?

I have always held this idea, and I have always strived to make myself a mature author, not only to write good novels, but also to guide young readers to have the correct three views.

Then……

This morning, I suddenly felt a lot of pressure, which was several times greater than before. The emotions that I used to be able to calm down suddenly became extremely restless, and the anxiety made me unable to do anything.

I didn't know how to tell anyone, so I found a senior who took good care of me on weekdays for help.

When I expressed my distress and finished speaking in chaotic and illogical words, the four words blurted out by this senior made me burst into tears in an instant.

He said: You are upset.

Many things that I don't want to admit and dare not reveal are reflected in these four words.

Last month, on two days in early September, I went for forty hours without sleep.

In the next half month from mid-September to the end of the month, I slept for 2-3 hours a day, and my spirit was extremely lethargic, and I looked exhausted.

Outsiders only see that I am not in good spirits, but they don't know what I am enduring. During this period of time, I have to code and maintain daily updates.

The biggest difference between online writers and traditional writers is the amount of daily updates similar to competitions. The creation of more than two million words a year can be found everywhere in this circle. There are several gods in the year.

Occupational diseases, cervical spine problems, waist and back problems, mental problems, insomnia and neurasthenia, a lot of comments on cyber violence, I have them all...

I even say a sentence here that is so ugly that I don't want to face it:

Twenty-two Swordsmanship turned out to be a female author! No wonder the more you write, the more watery girls are!

Including the editors who took me, they were only surprised before the recent photos were revealed. It turns out that the author who wrote the big comeback is a girl?

I never want to show the vulnerable side of a girl in front of others. Before this, I have never asked for forgiveness with gender, because I feel that once I do this, I am escaping from myself and regressing in the face of what should be solved. The problem of slackness and consideration and preferential treatment that normal male authors do not have.

It's not fair.

Now that I speak out, I have been enlightened, and I have also realized my own weakness. I am not that powerful and powerful, and sometimes I am even very ignorant and insignificant.

If I want tolerance and understanding, and want to feel warmth and love, apart from the readers who have been supporting me, I can't find a group that is more suitable to give me these.

So I wasted my coding time and wrote so much nonsense.

Finally, thank you for your likes and support, and thanks to all the readers who encouraged me, supported me, picked mistakes and criticized me.

In the future, I will no longer avoid problems, but will accept my shortcomings well and face my heart correctly.

thank you all!

Oh yes, do you have a monthly pass?

Crazy begging! !

(To be continued.)