Chapter 1757 You Provoked Me

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Yun Hua looked at Bao Siqing.

Her eyes are filled with all kinds of entanglement and pain...

"Huahua, I thought we were already the most trustworthy people in each other. If even life can be handed over, what else can't I know?" Bao Siqing held her face and pressed his forehead against hers, Looking straight at her, he said word by word.

Yun Hua's tears suddenly fell.

"I... nothing, I just... just..."

How can she say what she has suffered?

The man in front of her is the person she trusts the most and also the person she loves the most, but the more she loves, the more timid he becomes. If he knew that she was so stupid, she...

She could say anything, even the secret of rebirth to him, but she really couldn't tell him about her miserable past.

She couldn't speak.

"Okay, okay, I won't ask." Seeing her like this, he felt distressed first, and hugged her directly, "Okay, it's my fault, I shouldn't force you. Be good, if you don't want to say it, just say it." Needless to say, the past has passed, it is not important, what is important is now, well, don't be afraid, don't be afraid..."

He held her tightly in his arms, patted her back gently, and comforted her.

Yun Hua gradually calmed down.

She gently sat up from his arms and looked at him, "Ah Qing, it's not that I don't want to tell you, but that to me, it's really a very unbearable memory. I...I..."

"I know, needless to say." Bao Siqing quickly stopped her, "Tell me first, did you perceive anything at that time?"

Yun Hua shook his head with a wry smile.

She knew he was changing the subject, trying to forcefully connect her fainting condition with her fading perception.

"I didn't feel anything." Yun Hua said softly, "I fainted because I saw that sea of ​​blue flowers..."

"See the blue sea of ​​flowers?" Bao Siqing frowned, "It's not like you haven't seen it before."

"That's right." Yun Hua looked at him, "There was another time, you should know, it was at the Institute of Mental Health in S City, that time...Brother Ci and Sister Mo Mo should have told you."

"I said so." Bao Siqing looked at her, "I'm worried."

Yun Hua nodded softly, "I know. The situation this time is similar to that time. I saw the sea of ​​blue flowers... Oh no, it should be said that when I saw the sea of ​​flowers in the mental hospital, I would... ...I will think of the unbearable past. That is where I... am most powerless and most afraid..."

"Ah Qing, do you know what I am most afraid of?" She looked at him and said.

"What?"

"What I am most afraid of is not death, but after death, will it be wiped out, or will I return to the place where I came from? If it is wiped out, that is probably the best destination, and if it is returned to the place where I came Place..." Yun Hua was full of disappointment, took a long breath, and said the last word softly after a long time, "Then I will, life would be better than death."

Looking into her eyes, Bao Siqing's heart trembled suddenly.

He hugged her tightly, very tightly, as if he wanted to rub her into his body.

But it was such a tight hug, so tight that she couldn't breathe, that gave her a sense of security, and made her feet feel like they were stepping on the ground.

"No, no, I won't let you go." Bao Siqing's voice was extremely firm, "I won't let you go, I definitely won't let you go, even if you really don't belong here, I I won't let you go either! I'll treat you as if you came here for me. If you come, provoke me, don't even think about leaving!"

...

The two sat hugging each other, and it took a long time for Yun Hua to completely calm down.

"Huahua, I won't mention this matter again in the future." Bao Siqing said in a low voice, "But your situation is too serious, so I'm a little worried."

"worry about what?"

"Your situation is a stress response, the body's self-protection mechanism, the combination of the mental hospital and the blue iris, has even replaced those horrible memories and become a picture deeply ingrained in your brain, as long as you are in a mental illness Hospital, and then saw a lot of blue irises in a mental hospital, this combination will have a great impact on you. It is similar to a serious allergen, as soon as you touch this allergen, you will be allergic instantly , and your allergies are also very serious!"

Bao Siqing said, "I'm worried that if you don't intervene, in some cases, if you suddenly have this situation again... it will be dangerous."

Yun Hua pursed her lips, "But, how can this interfere with the treatment? I..."

"This is a psychological problem, and a professional psychiatrist should be involved." Bao Siqing said, "It's actually the same as treating various psychological disorders, and it's also similar to the desensitization therapy used to treat allergies. A little contact with weak Stimulus, after you get used to a certain amount of stimulation, increase it until you can adapt like a normal person.”

Yun Hua's hand on his waist couldn't help but clenched his shirt tightly.

"Then...you want...to find Brother Beiqian?" Yun Hua's voice was still hesitant, "I...do you want to ask Brother Beiqian if he has time? Maybe he's busy..."

"No." Bao Siqing shook his head, "I'm not looking for Beiqian. This matter is too important to me, and I dare not let anyone know, otherwise, there is a high possibility that someone will deliberately put you into a trap targeting this point. .”

"Then who are you looking for?" Yun Hua said, "Don't you trust Brother Beiqian's words more?"

"I've already made arrangements." Bao Siqing said, "You use training as an excuse to go abroad once a month. I contacted a teacher. He is old and has long since stopped receiving psychological counseling. The key is Yes, very few people know that he has worked in this field. He is a gourmet now, and when you meet him, no one else will think about psychological counseling.”

"...Okay." Yun Hua took a deep breath and nodded in agreement.

She knew that Bao Siqing was doing it for her own good, and if it made him feel at ease, she was willing to do it.

But in fact, she was not optimistic about it, because she knew how defensive she was. Apart from Bao Siqing, she had no way to trust anyone else.

The secret of her rebirth will only be told to him alone, other people's words...not at all.

As for the secret of the mental hospital and the blue iris, it wasn't that she didn't trust Bao Siqing, but... it was that she couldn't say it.

It's like letting a girl who has been subjected to violence say all that to the person she loves the most, it has nothing to do with trust, it's just... low self-esteem.

"By the way, how is the investigation of Gu Huaiyi's case going? I can't help you either." Yun Hua hesitated, "Why don't I go again, this time I'm mentally prepared, it should be fine. Mainly, I seem to feel something!"